Javanese...

What to say???

Surely, I hate being in the middle of my friends in my campus. Actually, nearly all the time in campus I spent with my Javanese friends. And fortunately, most of the class members are Javanese!! They always communicate each other by Javanese language while I was still in the middle of the conversation. I became speechless then.
I just don't understand, how come such thing could happen?? The one I hate from them is that while they're talking one another, I sometimes felt that I was being talked, and when I realized, it's true that I was being talked. They always play at me with their strange language.
Nevertheless, there is a translator here. My closest friend, Dimas, is a Javanese too and I always force him to translate every Javanese language I hear. The one I like is that he always explain nearly every Javanese vocabulary I don't understand which I just heard.
Confidently, I can say now that ITB environment can change one's culture into the mixed one, the ITB culture, the united one. At first I felt comfortable to use my regular Indonesian language while I know also that here in ITB people seldom use the "gua, lu" language. Moreover, I won't find people using "aing, sia" in conversation (even though I found one this morning). You know what, after socializing myself here in ITB's environment, I found that my Indonesian language couldn't be accepted easily that I have to study nearly every regional language I hear in the community where I belong. It's a bit difficult and inconvenient actually, but I will try hard, struggle, forcing my self to study languages again.

One & the Only Holiday

Today is a holiday for nearly all STEI (School of Electrical Engineering and Informatics) students because we have finished all the practicums. That's why I arranged today activities as holiday activities. It was supposed to be holiday for the whole day actually, but you know that it didn't go that way today.
This morning I got up late, at about 8 a.m. while I was supposed to get up at 7. When I just wanted to take a bath, Dimas arrived. I was surprised then, not realizing that I was supposed to be earlier ready to go swimming this morning. After preparing all things, I had a breakfast which actually as replacement of my absence in having dinner last night. I ate till I felt full.
Then I went to Batununggal Club House and swam there for about an hour. I swam the (I forgot the English name for it) gaya "katak/dada" for 20 "bolak-balik" or equivalently 1026 meters long. That was the beginning. The real swimming was just 2 "bolak-balik" "gaya bebas". I got briefly tired (my legs) that I stopped swimming immediately. Then I studied calculus until I decided to take a shower. Just as I finished cleaning my body, Dimas stopped studying physics. Then we went to the parking area and went home. The way back home was amazingly shorter than the one we took to get to Batununggal. So, we arrived home faster than we thought before.
Dimas quickly went by. Then I made the card for the congregation in the church (member card). Actually I just made the design which have to be approved then. But, overall I like making such design.
At precisely 1.30 I went to campus to make the physics tasks with my teammates. It was until 4.30 we made that thing. Then I continued my activity with doing the calculus homework. Unfortunately, it was so many!! I could get crazy just because of doing that homework. In spite of that, we were supposed to be five while there was only two of us there making the homework. That's why we did it for quite a longer time than we used to. We finished doing it at about 9 p.m. My head got "ngahuleung" just as we finished. The counting was so many and complicated. It irritated my mind.
However, I like doing those things in spite of the term holiday being swayed. Overall, I like doing all the activities today. Half of them are the holiday activities and the other half are the campus activities.

Music

After I observed for quite a period of time among all my surroundings (people around me) about music and the impact to their lives, I found something interesting. Most people who like listening to pop music often (generally) focus only on their life, all things connected to their life too. Their commonly use their feeling rather than have their logical thinking work.
Those who like listening to classical music mostly don't like changes in many things related to their vital parts in life. They are usually stubborn. Those who like listening to rock music have nearly similar characteristic with those who like listening to pop music, but rather be more offensive and so fragile to getting offended. That's why they commonly show them self offensive. Actually, this are not so different with those who like listening to metal music. The one different is that those liking metal music rather show them self as being introvert even though they like making friends. This is obviously seen in how they confine in somebody else. Most of them don't have anybody likely to be confined. Actually, these are only hypothesis and are of general observation.
Funnily, those who like jazz music have different characteristics from all of them mentioned above. Those who like art the most in their life mostly like jazz music better than any other music. Usually, for those liking jazz music, jazz itself is an addictive thing that it could defeat all other things that restrain it to come out. In my opinion, jazz is the most difficult music genre I've ever studied because it contains many things to be studied and memorized. The theories are so many while those are difficult to be applicated. The one thing having the biggest role here is the feeling of the man. Jazz music makes people sing in their mind unstoppedably.
That's why I like jazz music the most...

Tired

It's a bit tiring today. The whole activities today are all about numbers and variables!! I can't stand facing such a day like today. I had better have only chemistry lesson for 8 hours rather than have calculus, physics, concepts in engineering, and chemistry, all of which are 2 hours each. They pressed my brain so heavily.
Actually, last night I slept for only 3 hours, from 1 to 4 a.m. And in fact, I didn't sleep as I planned because I fell asleep all of sudden. That's why I felt so tired this morning. I couldn't define what the interesting things are in calculus and physics. Though both are disgusting, I'd rather choose physics better than calculus. Surely I don't like calculus, from the depth of my heart while my closest friend, Dimas, loves that stuff so much. I don't understand.
Now, I feel deeply afraid of the calculus UTS the next Friday. I don't understand the previous lesson in the end of differential chapter and the beginning of integral chapter. They are so full of variables!!! (Nearly no number at all!!! I don't like such things without color and unfortunately, there are only two colors in calculus book!!! My goodness!!!)
All I can do now is just praying and keep studying until I go beyond my limitation.. Cha You!!!

Sunday Activites

It seems like a day for resting Sunday is. However, I feel the difference. I study only of little time on Sunday. Most of my time that day I spend in the church because I play a keyboard, accompanying my partner in playing the keyboard too, the other one. If it is complete, I have to attend and play keyboard for four services per day. Therefore, I got only spare time at 11 until 15.00. I used to not liking this kind of life. But now I like it very much.
So, for those want to have a team work discussion with me, please understand me that I'm quite busy that I had only a few hours left for such work. Would you please arrange them in much more proper time that is suitable too for everyone.

Sleepy, No Time for It

It's funny I think, being back in such a typical life. I find it difficult nowadays to set my schedule in a proper order and time allocation. There wasn't too much work to do this far, but it sounds strange that I don't have time even for my personal life. There are so many responsibilities that I hold now, from different places and organizations. The one I don't concern too much now is the KMPA unit in my campus, and that is the only one I could "lepas" for a while with no other could be done so.
The one I quite hate about campus life is that my friends have their weekend time to do anything they want, or finishing their assignments while in the same day too nearly all units run their activities too. In the same time and day I can only be in the church, with nearly four services I had to attend and in three of them I had to play keyboard with my band. Actually, I enjoyed this so much. What I don't like is that most of my friends doesn't respect weekdays as I respect them so much cause I know that the normal weekend is the most busy day among all days a week. That's why I rather allocate my work to be finished out of that day while others think the opposite thought, as well as my closest friend in campus. Eventually, I had to deal with it too.. By this I'm able to say to all my friends that I work harder than all of them because I had more work to do than they do. With the same range of time of working, I had to allocate more for working rather than for sleeping though I know that one of my friends didn't do the same as commonly done but rather working harder than me. However, he still did what he likes while I couldn't do so. I did what I had to do, not what I like to do.
Courage!!!!

What a Week!!!!

Such an amazing week it was! I didn't even imagine that it would go that way this week. You know what, I've been through hard time. First, I fell with my motorbike last Tuesday and it did hurt! Besides, the motorbike didn't want to go well. And because of that too I came late to chemistry class. Second, I forgot of my "pengling" tasks, whether the personal assignment or both the group assignment. Ya... Just forget it. Third, I forgot of my Concepts in Engineering Task. It is a team assignment, quite a project, not to big, but wide impact it has. We're planning to make such a watch that can detect the heart rate, similar to the function of electrocardiograph. Astonishingly, one of my teammates, my most relied on, thought of another idea relating to that function. My goodness!!!! How come it happened just a few days before the D-day!! I don't know what to say... speechless.. I've searched for many things related to the work of ECG and I got so many. I just rewrote them and compressed all the materials in it (summarized them). I've searched also things about the work of watches. Surely, I have no idea of what to say...
The last, I, with my team, physics team, had to make a "pelontar" for a 40-gram ball. It was easy in fact to make such thing if I work alone, all by myself. But, unexpectedly, I had to work with a team consisted of 8 persons with me the only one who worried this thing the most. It's been two weeks of working and still nothing accomplished! Despite the tool has been ready, the report was not ready yet. I made it too, not finished yet because it was quite confusing. I lost my paper and I only remember that it was not allowed to go more than three pages for the report while until now I've made three pages, not including the counting of the parabolic movement. Ridiculously, I believe I'm the only one member of this teamwork that remember that there has to be a report with the tool. No one contacted me until now about the report. Actually, there was one sms-ed me about this task, but she didn't ask about the report. Speechless.....
I don't feel anybody belong to the teamwork because there's no teamwork for the real assignment. There WAS one time we work together making the main parts of the tool using Jiwo's design and my calculation about the positioning of every part of the tool. I planned to lay this all off... But I believe I can survive. Just keep struggling and finishing the work. Be the head! That's what encouraging me so far. O God... please...

Fell with The Motorbike

It was sucks!!! I have never imagined such an embarrassing event as this morning! It was just a brief occurrence that I fell down with my motorbike to the ground. I admit that I was driving fast that time, about 40 km/hour in Jalan Ganesa, but the point is that I've done such thing so many times that it was supposed not to happen! There were two other motorbikes from Jalan Ciung Wanara turning left to Ganesa while I was coming from Dago to Ganesa and at that time I was going to pass that street when that two infuriating motorbikes came all of sudden. I nearly hit them. However, I "rem" my motorbike spontaneously that it "oleng" and eventually fell down to the ground, falling to the left side of the motorbike. Ridiculously, that two motorbike just went by with no guilty feeling while the other people on the side of the road helped me and stood the motorbike up. At first, it couldn't start up that make me quite frightened that time. How come it could happen???!! By the way, I fell just before the eastern gate of ITB. After a while trying to start up the motorbike, it did turn on and I could get into the western gate. One think I worried was that it couldn't be switched to the first "gigi" and finally the neutral "gigi". O my goodness!!! I can't stand bearing such thing happening in my life! All of sudden, I lost my mood in studying chemistry today.
After I parked my motorbike, I checked it all around. Just as I finished checking, I tried to hang my helmet to the left side of the motorbike, but it couldn't be hung! Beside that, the front rear couldn't be locked! I became speechless... Then I made my decision that I had to keep attending the class whether I wanted to study or not. So, slowly I walked to the class and after being late for 18 minutes I came into the class and sit at the second row in the class. Hendy had prepared it for me (obviously!!). During the lesson I only listened to what Pa Buchari said and I didn't make any notes from what he explained. I'm not in to writing that time.
Then I was supposed to have a Kontek Class. Nevertheless, there was no Pa Budi. So, we were told to join the Pa Agus's class while all of us refused to do so that we made an excuse saying we had better make the project assignment for next week class, kontek class. The assistance agree with us and he allow us to do so. Thus, we arranged the project and went home after we had finished. Dimas and I went to my motorbike and he checked it for me too. When everything seemed to be alright, I went home with only 4 "gigi" functioned (first, neutral, second, and third). How come it could happen??!!

UTS

Just reporting, I got bad marks for the last 3 UTS in my campus. I dislike them so much. I got only B for the calculus because I didn't study as I had to. I got A for physics. Though it is A, it was only 79. But, I've complaint for a 5-point missing in the third problem. So, the real mark will be 84 after the next corection. The last one, chemistry, I got the highest score in the class, only 91,5. I don't know what else which is wrong. In my opinion (and I believe it true), I made only one blank and the others are correct (for the multiple choice part) and I got perfect score for the essay part. So, I thought I would get about 95 above. Although it's been high enough, I was still below one of my friend in another class. He got 1 point higher than me. Tomorrow is the last UTS1, Concepts in Engineering. I'm planning to get a high score again. I hope. (there's still hope to rely on)

The Jazz Way

Jazz, as many other say, is one of the most complicated music genre. I've been studying this music for about nearly four years. I don't like the first two years of studying this jazz music. All I have to do was just memorizing the chords which are so many, so complicated. After that long term, I stepped to the next level, studying the scales. I thought it would be easier, but what I found was the more difficult exercise. I don't like it at all! It was tiring to memorize so many kinds of scale and the fingering too.
However, I finally stepped to the improvisation level. It was more difficult than before, but I like it though I was too lazy to do the exercise at home everyday. Now, I'm no more studying only the kinds of improvisation techniques. Now, I'm studying kinds of song in jazz world. It is more interesting than those former lessons.
What I like from jazz music is that it's easy for anybody not having met before to play in one musical band with one-minded way. Though it is quite complicated to decide whether he or another plays the improvisation first, it is fully enjoyable to play the music. Everybody has their own role in the play. This is what many people usually say about the jazz way, showing the one accord.
Eventhough there're so many music beside jazz, in my opinion, jazz is the most complicating one. You may see other music's musician/music player play their instrument more skillful or more complicated than jazz, but playing jazz is not just playing one kind of music because there are so many sub-kinds of music in jazz world and there are more differences between the music than those in other music genres. The kinds of chord are so many in jazz music, more than those used in other music genres.
Want to experience the more complicated music?? Join the jazz world!!

Life Mate

It might seem to be important for nearly everybody in this world to have a life mate to walk this life. I just want to share my thought. In my life, there hasn't been even once a moment I like a girl or a woman or even think about having a mate to be by my side anytime I need. It was just like NAPZA for me because I think life could be succeed if I focus myself to that goal, not being disturbed by anything, especially a humanbeing.
But, after a few years I look on my friends at school and now at campus of most their lives, I still couldn't define what a life would be if a woman come to one's life and involve in nearly all one's emotional wave everytime. For me, in this age, a mate is just the same as "candu". I've made a plan in this life. I think I'll start to search for a mate after I reach my 21-year-old age.
In my mind, a life mate is not just simply a girl friend that is able to be changed anytime you want, but a humanbeing that you commit yourself to involve him/her in your life so deep as never done before that your life is not your own anymore because of him/her. And also, I'm not a man with that kind of thought that is easily change my girlfriend everytime I feel I'm not suitable anymore to her. It was quite a very important issue for me to have such a mate in life. Beside that, in my opinion, in my age there's still not enough capacity to think such thing maturely because the adults, commonly, even in their age, they still couldn't define what love is. For me, I will start to think that kind of think after I could define what love is, a bit silly..

Smile!

It sounds common probably that everyone tells one another not to put on a distressed face, but rather the smiling one. It was the smiling face being the important point. It was rather the emotional condition of a person or commonly said as emotional quotient. I agree with those saying that Intelligent quotient is just a few percents of life success. Don't think those too high at first. Start from everyday life and you'll realize that your emotional quotient gives very important role in your way of life and the success you're reaching.
Once I was hardly smile everyday, except when I was in my private room, reading funny books. I realized then that my school achievement was largely influenced by this condition too which made my marks bad. Then I started new thing as I entered the acceleration class. No matter how difficult the problem I'm facing, there are things much more important to be concerned about that I had to lay aside all my unimportant problems first. Day by day I walked with that kind of mindset and it was amazing! I felt like I had no personal problems at all because my focus was not on my self but on everything around me, especially my work. Then I started to set my emotion on joyous condition all the time. It was just then I feel my life had changed totally into a new one.
So, everything must be started from setting your focus of life, not self-centered, and then start to enjoy your life with smile and many other little things and especially bring joy to your life.
Keep smiling!!

Maximization

I felt absolutely tired today. It's been nothing to work on actually this morning. But, the problem is that I went back home after all church activities yesterday at about 10.30 p.m. And then I didn't sleep until 4.30 a.m the next morning, monday morning, and actually I was only sleeping for 40 minutes! One thing inside my mind keeping me this way is that no matter how tired I be, every joy is decision having to be made and I decide not to lose my joy everytime in my life, eventhough through the lowest and the most tiring condition of my body. Funnily, that kind of mindset made me easier to maximize my potency. By that I could work over twenty four hours without being stopped even for a while. That's why I used to be workaholic when I was at my senior high school grade.
The point here is that everything goes up from your mindset. The key of my ability to endure working for such an amazing time record nearly everyday is setting my mind to keep enjoying everything and liking or build the interest in the field I'm working no matter how undesireable it is. In my high school grade, I decided to reach the 3 top rank in the class while on that time I didn't like many subjects. So, what I did was I set my mind to like all the lessons given by any teachers and study them back at home everyday until dawn which made me sleep only for 2 or 3 hours a day. It was a bit difficult at the start, but I enjoyed too finally until I got the third rank every semester for the last 4 semesters.
You know what, I didn't realize myself that I could do such thing in this life. So, since that time, I never think of what I don't like or what I couldn't do. I rather think of what I could do to set my mind in line with my destiny. Thus, don't think of all things you cannot do, but rather of the things you should do in order to reach your destination in the future. Set your mind today!

Time Limit

Unfortunately, it's been 3.47 p.m that I have to prepare myself to go to church. Actually, I still want to write many posts here. But, what else to do?? If I am asked to pray something by God that whatever I ask He will bring it forth, I would ask for additional time per day 6 hours at least so that it will broadened my time of working and studying. I always feel jealous if I saw my friends from other cities or provinces doesn't many activities like me that they are able to study as long as they want, not like me, having to study at the appointed time (significant time spent only to study and the other for other activities).
Or, if I am to be given a present (it's nearly my birthday..!!!), I would like to ask for an assistance or a PDA for scheduling my timetable everyday..

Butterfly Effects (Movie)

I'm sure this film is quite popular since it is an old film. I was remembered about this film last week as I watched the advertising in trans tv (I don't know the synonym for advertising that match the context). I think it was impossible to do. The film from the beginning until nearly three quarter of the total film tells us about the life of the man (I forgot the name) which had a strange psycological problem in her brain. He was easy to forget the event happening just a few second before he forgot all things. And finally, there was no memory lost for 7 years until he was accepted in a university. Strangely, all things came to blow up again when his old friend was going out of jail. His friend pretended to kill him actually but what happened was not that. He killed his friend. Thus, he was sent to jail and in the jail he started to remember each event he forgot in the past since he was a child. Then something strange happened there. He started to read his diary and all things seemed to be happening again (in his mind). He started to jump from a kind of history to another which he thought might be better in the future. In fact, he went back to the past and changed the event he wanted to change and a few minutes later he went back to the future ( the time he was supposed to be in) and looked to the condition. If it didn't suit him, he would go back to the past and change a bit again and then went to the future again. It happened for times and finally he found the most suitable history to make the future better for him and for his friends from the past. The thing to be concerned is the ability to go beyond the time and change things the person wanted. It was just like making himself God.
In my opinion, he had made his choice in the past and that would result in his future life. He had to accept it. He had to agree with what he had done in the past would result in the future and there would need no regret. If anyone can change his/her past, all men will automatically had their own earth and decide what their earth would be like. As a matter of fact, we cannot do that. Your decision today would effect your future by means of time. And it cannot be denied.
So, my suggestion is decide your choice today carefully and walk in it! Don't ever regret of what you decide because it is life. I like what Oprah said a few days ago, trying is failing with honour. So, don't do anything in a concept of trying but rather do anything with confidence!

Raining (raining season??)

It sounds strange probably if I tell you this story. There has been times of event cancelled because of me, for the open air event. Everytime I felt tired or just thinking I don't want to join that kind of event, and also praying for rain, it was raining just as I prayed. I still remember, two years ago, in my birthday, I had to go to a piano lesson after school and in that day I am not in mood of playing piano. I didn't pray anything to make the sky rains. I just didn't want to have that lesson that day. Eventually, it was raining hard! So I couldn't go out of school and I'm free that day.. It was just the same too as this. Once, I didn't want to have a PE lesson (physical exercise). So I just said to the sky to fall the rain and a few second later it was raining that we, the whole class (acceleration class) didn't have to go to Pajajaran GOR to have the lesson. It was funny actually for the other side of this thing. There had been so many times the sky was raining and I desired to go out in the open air without being wet. So I just looked toward the sky and tell it to stop the rain and it was astonishingly stopped!! The one I still remember until know was that when I wanted to go to IP (Istana Plaza) from school and it was raining quite hard that day, I commanded the sky to stop the rain until I went home. It did work! Oh ya, I remember too when I was driving my motorbike (actually, it was nearly everyday), going home, and that time it was nearly raining that I spoke to the sky to hold the rain not to fall until I arrived home. Amazingly, just as I arrived home the rain started to fall very hard! It was my life.. But, I felt a bit sorry for my friend, my new one, because I mever told him this story and that time (a week ago) he desired to have a PE lesson that day. On the other hand, I didn't want to have that lesson that day because I was terribly tired and I wanted to sleep very much. When we were having lunch together, there seemed to be no raining that day or would be raining but couldn't be predicted when it would be. Then I said (I just spoke up my desire) that there would be raining at 3.00 p.m. until evening. Funnily, the rain started at 2.00 p.m., but it was just a few minutes and then it was stopped. The real raining as I commanded started at 2.45 p.m. and it wasn't finished until we both went home. I'm sure he was thinking that I was just joking or just hoping that there would be raining at PE time while there wouldn't be raining at Pengling time. Nevertheless, all things go as I'd said.. Hahaha... (Sory to those wishing to have PE lesson last monday..)

The Fourth Blog

Hi! My name is Christian, the full one is Christian Halim. I am still a student and now I'm studying in ITB (Institut Teknologi Bandung/Bandung Institute of Technology), in School of Electrical Engineering and Informatics faculty. I've decided to enter the Electrical Engineering one, not the Informatics, hopefully be fulfilled. As my name, I'm a male, still 17 now, a month to 18. I live in Bandung and originally came from Bandung. I live in the centre of Bandung, a bit southern.
My activities now, beside studying, are playing piano with my teacher and his jazz band once per month or three weeks. The cafe is Prima Taste, not quite a cafe, but rather a lounge. By the way, this year is my twelfth year of learning to play piano. I enjoy this kind of musical instrument very much.
Beside my music interest, I have another hobby too, drawing. Actually, since long time ago I've desired to enter an architecture school, which in Bandung the best one is UNPAR (universitas Parahyangan), the one in Ciumbuleuit. Before I entered ITB, I've been accepted there. I only have to pay about 15 million rupiahs for the next step of entering this university. However, my surrounding conditioned me to keep struggling to enter ITB by the SPMB path. So, I followed the instruction, and actually I persuaded my mind also to keep studying in order to enter that university. Unbelieveably, I was accepted in ITB in the STEI faculty! Thus, I followed all the procedure to be ITB's student until the payment step. Then, I was legally verified as ITB's student. Obviously, I didn't pay the fee for entering UNPAR. That was a brief history of my existence here in ITB in the faculty I haven't even imagined to be in.
About this life, I enjoy every step I take eventhough most of them are difficult to be faced. I joined the acceleration class in my senior high school grade which made me faster a year in entering university. In that phase I studied to maximize myself in every second of my step. Nearly everyday I slept for only 2 to 3 hours a day. I was terribly tiring. Believe it or not, that environment formed me to be workacholic, just like my close friend now in ITB, although he is much more workacholic than me. I realized then that I could go beyond all boundaries I've thought I had so far. In the final step, I got the rank of third best student among all acceleration students in SMAK 1 BPK Penabur Bdg. It was astonishing! You won't believe it! When I entered this class in the first year, I got only the 7th rank. Nevertheless, I gradually got higher rank until I constantly got the third rank every semester. Eventhough I was quite distressed for those two years in acceleration class, I learned many things about life, so much from every tear falling, from every failure, from the unique social life I underwent, and so much more. From those situation I learned how to lay aside all unimportant things of life and focus myself to one thing I have to do that time. It was difficult on the first time, but I gradually got used to it too. To me, this step of life gave impact the most to my being now, the one forming myself to be this kind now, 180 degrees upside down my life before I entered high school. For me, in all my way I study to live not living to study. I still disagree the opinions of my friends in my campus which stated that their focus is to study, or to be successful only in men's rate.
Overall, I hope you enjoy reading this blog.
Regard,
Christian